Tale 38
How Important Is Betty Ann?
“...it's hard not to respect her, the
way she was.
Betty Ann would take her instrument
after rehearsal,
when everybody went whoopee-do to the
bars 'n stuff.
She was never one of those to go off
to the Blue Note and Deer Head, I know.
I'm speakin' of Betty Ann not as my
wife
but as a woman that was in the group
and I didn't even like.
But she'd take her instrument to go
off and rehearse parts,
or to get new sounds or a better
sound than she already had for that part.
And she'd come in the next day and
she'd have a whole new unique sound.
Well, she'd worked four or five hours
on this, and he knew it.
That put her in a category way far
above anybody else.”
“She was never
one of those to go off to the Blue Note and Deer Head, I
know.”
the Deer Head
Inn
on
Each [Huron] tormenter
patiently waited his turn, and showed no sign of anger or lack
of self-control while he had the prisoner in his power.
Frequently, they addressed him with mock benevolence.[1]
Everything deeply
bass-sounding in the band hit triple forte and held, while the
brass blared warning, and clarinets trilled nervously, and
then a sorrowful violin redid
the whole from a tender point of view. What should
one expect from a piece of music that opened like this, with
two opposite messages? Nothing comforting, certainly.
Bill passed mj a newspaper clipping.
It promised no more corroborating evidence than anything else
he had handed him all night long to support the allegation
that Fred’s treatment of him had been reprehensible. You had
to believe Bill; or not believe; although Betty Ann had seemed
to agree with everything he had said, when she was present,
and had even outdone him with negativity at times.
Fred Waring
Delights 1,800 at Charity Show
Fred Waring, who
has been making it a habit in recent years to reach Scranton
each Fall with a talented troupe of touring Pennsylvanians,
brought another winning combination here, to delight a
capacity crowd of 1,800 at the
Mj excused himself
suddenly and went to the bathroom with his Sears bag to shore
himself up.
If Bill left Fred
after all this, mj found himself thinking, Bill should
remember Fred with some tolerance – for his own mental health
– rather than carry the anger around forever. Which meant Fred
needed an ounce of understanding for Bill’s sake,
even if not for Fred’s; and for mj’s sake too, for that
matter, because he
needed to see a little tolerance for his mental health.
And if Bill was too angry to comprehend all this and do
something about it for everybody’s
mental health, then mj lorenzo would have to settle the matter
himself! He
tried to give himself a pep talk before proceeding, in other
words. He needed help
to get through the thing with Bill that he sensed was coming,
the intense ordeal of some kind which he now realized Bill had
been building up to, all night long.
He had stayed
pretty rational all night, he thought, on what he believed
might have been three buttons, or even five peyote buttons,
and all his rational analysis had gotten him nowhere with
Bill; so this time he tried what he thought might be ten
buttons of peyote. And the taste of the concoction, familiar
by now, reminded him that Joey had prophesied that mj would
find ‘ultimate peace’ while fishing for the Waring fairy tale.
He laughed at that
idiocy and the laugh echoed off the blue and yellow tile
walls. He would have promised himself to chew Joey out the
next day for that crazy prophecy too, at the same time he
chewed him out about the concoction; except that he had
forgiven him by now for the concoction. He had gotten a little
more used to the music now, and the hellish movie spinning in
his mind; and he had even begun to suspect it might fit, in
some way, with what was going on in the living room; but there
was no time to think it through, of course. Too much was
happening. He’d have to figure it out later.
Returning from the
bathroom, he entered a faintly fire-lit Huron longhouse. The
arch arbiter sat at the far end. Mj hobbled toward the arena
of ceremony with no new plan. It was boorish to insist Bill
had served somehow as Fred's father. Nor was there any
evidence that Bill had ever confused his own father with Fred.
That notion had bombed worse than the first. No psychoanalytic
interpretation had worked with Bill because, as mj would
realize only gradually, months and years later, Bill did not
think – or operate – in a contemporary Western world way.
Mj entered Fred’s
torture pit, found his usual spot, sat, and sipped rancid brew
as prescribed by their ritual. He frowned and said something
without hearing it in his mind first, for a change. It popped
out.
"OK! You've said
things changed between you and Fred. Let me ask you this. How
important is Betty Ann?"
Strings descended a
scale Zoom, zoom, zoom,
zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom, Zoom. Zoom. Zoom. Zoom!...
"Very," said Bill.
"Very, because she was going with his son, for quite a long
while; they were going to be married. Billy. And after I told
Fred I was marryin' Betty Ann he'd say, 'You can't get any
better. She's the greatest'." Bill’s Fred was curt, aggrieved,
conceding a point with a feeling of regret and disgust. "Says,
'My damn fool son. Shoulda married 'er'."
The sound of a slow
two-step could be heard. Three muted trombones wept smoothly,
Dah dah-dah-dah-dah
duuhh!... ('I love-you-much-too much!')
step-boom-step-boom-step-...
"Ah –; Betty Ann:
many, many ways she was important. That brought her into the
family. She became very much like a daughter. Fred respects
that. No woman –," Bill thought about it a minute. "No woman
has ever been with Fred longer, in the group. I think it was
fourteen or fifteen years."
"Hmmm:" mj’s mind
worked over especially the words, ‘very much like a daughter',
because it sounded Freudian. Fred might have been treating
Bill badly because he felt Bill had stolen from him someone
who had always felt like
a daughter to him, Betty Ann.
But the big
winner was the Little Sisters of the Poor, who will be able
to swell their Building Fund with about $10,000 in proceeds
from the sponsoring
"So right there
that says something: longer
than any woman. And Betty Ann is the kind of personality
that can get along with almost anybody, even Fred.
"Y'know. And she's
a mystery in a lot
of ways to Fred Waring. Betty Ann was a mystery to me. She was
a mystery to everybody. She did not stay over to Rehearsal
Hall, she stayed over at McClintocks’, over Poley’s garage.
And she showed up in time for rehearsal and all, y'know.
"And when she went
on the Road, she had her own room, and she was friendly and
warm and played games on the bus 'n stuff like this, and was
very –."
Ntah
ntah-ntah-ntah-ntah-ntuuhhn!... Muted trumpets
confessed harshly the same wordless line.
"But, she'd go out
two weeks and come in two weeks, go out two weeks –."
"That was different
from the others, too," mj appreciated. He sifted every line of
this passion play portraying Fred’s sad end, looking for some
key to
grasping it.
"Nobody ever does
that with Fred,” Bill agreed. “So consequently she was a –."
"A special figure!"
offered mj, feeling they might be getting closer to something.
As the prisoner's
strength failed him... it became necessary to carry him
through the longhouse. At this point, the headmen ordered the
people to stop torturing him, so that he would not die before
sunrise. The prisoner was then placed on a mat and allowed to
rest, while many people left for a breath of fresh air.[2]
"And then ah, well Fred sat down at
the concert the other night, the last concert of the Tour
year,[3]
and it was Poley and Yvette's 50th Wedding Anniversary too. He
said I was there, and I was this and that. He went down this
whole list of people and mentioned what they did, and how he
wanted to thank everybody for their efforts this year.
"And Fred finally
said: ‘In this audience
we have a lady... who’,” Bill was emphatic, “‘introduced the
Cordovox to the world! An electronic organ in the form of an
accordion’! And he said, 'An ex-Pennsylvanian and we hold very
dear’, and blah-blah. He really gave her the biggest buildup
of all, said, 'Betty Ann McCall’! And he had a pile of chicks
sittin' up on that stage, y'know. I think –."
Zah zah-zah-zah-zah-zuuuhh!... A solo violin
echoed dolefully.
Mj meant to
spotlight Fred, not Betty Ann, when he said, "He must have respected Betty Ann!"
"Oh, great deal."
"I mean," said mj,
"the way he wouldn't respect other women."
"Oh, very
definitely."
The big crowd
scarcely had settled in its seats before it was apparent
that it was to witness a new order of things. Waring, who
usually saves his patriotic medley for a big finish, tied it
to his "
"Somehow, when I
hear the descriptions of the way he relates to women, I don't
get respect as one of the things –."
"Oh yeh, it's hard
not to respect her, the way she was. Betty Ann would take her
instrument after rehearsal, when everybody went whoopee-do to
the bars 'n stuff. She was never one of those to go off to the
Blue Note and Deer Head, I know. I'm speakin' of Betty Ann not
as my wife but as a woman that was in the group and I didn't
even like. But she'd take her instrument to go off and
rehearse parts, or to get new sounds or a better sound than
she already had for that part. And she'd come in the next day
and she'd have a whole new unique sound. Well, she'd worked
four or five hours on this, and he knew it. That put her in a
category way far above anybody else."
the Deer Head
sits across 611 (
The verse repeated,
with more diverse coloring this time.
"And another thing
he didn't mess with her for is, she's a fine musician,
y'know."
This kicked off a
procession of talented youngsters, used collectively as "The
Young Pennsylvanians." Waves of applause greeted "September
Song" and "Lover" before Waring and frog-voiced Poley
McClintock joined in for a spirited "Bibbidy Bobbidy Boo"
presentation.
When the prisoner began
to revive, he was forced to sing again and his torture was
resumed.[4]
The woodwinds took
off now with a dance beat, Big-Band fashion, and expanded it
at the end into a nineteen thirties movie fanfare announcing
that someone important in the movie was about to try to
prevail. The solo violin returned plaintively:
Dah dah dah dah dah daah!...
(I love you much too much!!!...)
"Well, there's
another aspect to this thing. Betty Ann was a crutch for him.
Everyone said it. She was a crutch for him; he...," Bill
thought about how he wanted to say this: "Betty Ann was the
one he could sit down and talk with 'n stuff. Ah, there are
things that she hasn't brought out, and I don't feel at
liberty to bring out, but, the things like ah, he had a
girlfriend on the road, y'know. It was a real big thing, I
mean, he was flippy-floppy over this girl, and he usta sit
down with Betty Ann and discuss this with her. And she was the
only person in the world that he did this with.
"As I said, she
became a member of the family. She was the one that he
wouldn't have to be on stage with: Betty Ann. He could sit
down and really open himself, beyond –. I don't know if you've
ever had a relationship with a woman like that."
Mj nodded.
The chorus began
with a rhapsodic violin recitative, Hungarian-rhapsodically:
Dah da-da-da-da-DAH!...
"But I have, where
really, it goes beyond. I knew girls in
"Platonic."
"Plutonic yeah and
y'see, it couldn't get to that stage I s’pose because she had
known his great romances and all this. And she was very tight
with his daughter; she still is:
Mj frowned.
"Maternal," he said to Bill, "more than Platonic." He was
incubating a Mother Theory now, not surprisingly, and would
warn psychotherapist supervisees for years after this
experience that they might go through a whole list of family
roles sometimes before finding the one that helped most to
explain the origin of their patient’s problem.
The band built, jota-style, faster,
faster: Da, dadadada, dum!...
Bill was oblivious
to mj’s ‘maternal’. He just kept plodding toward his
mysterious destination: "Betty Ann never hung around here,
that's another thing, the first couple of years she was in the
group when she was young. She was married and went off! As a
matter of fact, even at one point she would drive in from
A Gershwin medley
was highlighted by the dual talent of... [... ] ...singing
at the piano to make "They Can't Take That Away from Me"
memorable; and by a startlingly new arrangement of "Rhapsody
in Blue" featuring... [Betty Ann McCall]... on the
Cordovox....
‘Tired’, or
whatever Bill might have been feeling, though, he did not flag
in the least at his protracted, systematic effort to explain
to his friend, mj, his objection to Fred’s behavior. He
struggled, trying to think: "This Cordovox thing: she really
–. Somehow it was some kind of a wild crutch. I've tried to
figure it out many times, but, when we did that Nashville date
and I took over, 'cause Fred had his heart attack, he didn't
care about anybody else being on that recording date but Betty
Ann."
If the prisoner had been
a brave man, his heart was cooked and eaten by the young
warriors, who believed that they would acquire his courage in
this manner.[5]
"Partly," suggested
mj, "because she could provide any sound that he needed." The
'Cordovox', as Fred would explain to the audience at every
single live concert, was an electronic accordion with stops
for everything from piccolo to church organ. Betty Ann could
give Fred virtually any sound he heard in his head that should
have been there but was missing because of the small size of
his orchestra.
"Yes, that's
certainly one thing."
"That's an enormous
crutch," mj said. He had to soften Bill up so he’d be open to
a ‘mother theory’ this time. The two friends were birds of a
feather in at least one way: that neither would give up his
cause and call it quits, as some of the reading public later
complained.
"Well, not only
that," Bill said, "but she was a phenomenal musician, and he
immediately had a dislike for any phenomenal musicians because
he felt," Bill spit it through his teeth, "they didn't respect
him. That's one of his big hangups, his orchestra. He's had a
hassle running with musicians for years!"
"Hmm," mj thought
about this. "He must have felt she respected him too." That
added more weight to his ‘mother theory’.
Act 1 then became
the sole possession of the "Young Pennsylvanians," who
received their heaviest applause for "Tie a Yellow Ribbon,"
before Lorraine Pirochta and a pair of veterans, Heidi
Olstad and Nancy Tangen, made solid impact as the Andrews
Sisters doing "Boogie-Woogie Bugle Boy from Company B." The
troupe then kidded the singing commercials of television for
a sock finish that brought down the house.
They had talked
their way into the wee hours of the morning now, and Bill
still showed no sign that he might stop. Mj doubted his friend
was even on the subject of salvaging a working relationship
with Fred, he rambled so. But Bill knew what he was doing, as
mj realized later: if mj was to understand, as he had just
asked to understand, ‘how important was Betty Ann’ to
understanding the falling out with Fred, he had to know how
important she was to him, Bill. And that, in Bill’s mind,
required a careful description of the moment when, ironically,
Fred’s habit of advertising Betty Ann as the most critical and
valuable member of The Pennsylvanians became the very thing
that led to Bill’s finally being forced
to get to know her better; since, when Fred had his heart
attack, Bill had taken over the recording date, and Fred had
told him that she would be more critical to the recording than
anyone else. And Bill’s getting
to know Betty Ann, finally, after years of working
around her, was what had led to his falling in love with her
and having to leave the Organization and Fred.
"Now with Betty
Ann," he said, "he insisted on her being on the record date,
to
The last verse was
a frenzied pizzicato, so accelerated it passed in a flash.
.!.!.!.!.!.!!!!...
"But," mj’s voice
strained: "she also meant something to him personally."
"Yes, but I was
trying to look at it in strictly a business-like way."
"Which was wrong!"
said mj, frustrated that he couldn’t keep Bill focused on the
important, very special personal relationship Fred had enjoyed
with Betty Ann for years, the very special relationship with
her of which Bill had robbed Fred, in effect, by marrying her
and then encouraging her, most likely, to stop working for
Fred. Bill was indeed focused on that, however. He was
building up to it. He was a storyteller. Complicated stories
took time to tell, in Bill Blackburn’s television-free Huron
world.
Although Act 2
had the psychedelic "Theme Song From 2001" as a highlight,
its hour on stage was a special delight to older Waring fans
for a trio of trademarked numbers by veterans Leonard
Kranendonk ("Old Man River"), Jerry Toti ("On Top of Old
Smokey") and Ralph Isbell ("Climb Every Mountain"). The
troupe added the familiar "Dry Bones" featuring McClintock
and, in magnificent fashion again, the stirring "
Afterwards, the
prisoner's body was cut up to be cooked and eaten. Some Huron
ate it with horror, while others relished the taste of human
flesh, but to all it was an act of religious significance.[6]
Mj had meant his
statement, ‘Which was wrong’, as an invitation to Bill to
reflect for a minute on the extent and kind of personal feelings
Fred had felt for Betty Ann. The thought was good, but his
timing was not. Bill had decided to tell the story of how he
and Betty Ann had suddenly fallen in love after working
together all those years. He was coming around to it slowly,
but surely, and could not be interrupted to worry about Fred Waring’s
feelings. If he had wanted to think about
someone’s feelings
right then, it would not have been Fred’s
feelings. Please. So naturally he stayed right where he was in
his story about the way they finally had noticed each other
after all those years; and he kept on going with it.
"Well, when she was
in
"And I bent over
backwards to make sure she felt relaxed, and she said, 'I
don't even know what I'm doing here, it's ridiculous of me to
be here, to be even associated with them, they're fanTAStic’.
"These guys, I'd
walk back there, I'd say, 'Can you give me, "Dah, duh Dah,
d-duh Dah”’, y'know and BANG, it was there. Well, I felt
compassion towards her, y'know."
Trombones and
trumpets played staccato: Blah! blah! blah! blah! blah! BLAah!... (I love you much too much!) Violins swirled....
"An' I think, one
of the things that started this relationship off, she saw me
in complete and total charge of a big unit of people,
musicians, singers, and take over when Fred had his heart
attack, right in the middle of recording in
"I had seen her
before, and this aloof quality, and she'd walk in and she was
a queen. And she walked in, I mean, not because of Fred, the
way she carried herself. She was warm. She was friendly. But
the way everybody –; like: to the young girls in the group she
was somebody that knew a lot more than they knew, so they
consequently leaned on her."
"She was everybody's
mother!" mj managed to get in. He was getting excited again.
Bill had robbed Fred of not just his mother, but everybody’s mother,
mother Mary herself.
But it got no
reaction, naturally. Bill had reached the all-important moment
when he and Mother Mary were getting shivers here and there
and stars in their eyes and mj’s job was to shut up and
listen. Men didn't sit with each other very often and get
frank about falling in love with a woman. It was a very
special thing when it happened. No matter if it was three a.m.
and Fred Waring was being barbecued alive, sinew by sinew, and
you wanted to rescue him. It wasn’t the time to be shooting
off psychiatric theory or rescuing a high-class imbecile snob
boss from being roasted alive or having his employee walk out
the door mad.
"The other Cordovox
player," said Bill, "the one that alternated with her, she'd
sit back and let Betty Ann play the rehearsal and sit there
and watch her, finger a little bit, y'know. Everybody showed
great deference to her.
"And, the first
time I saw her –; it was during a reading or something. I
showed compassion towards her, and when she saw George try to
take the reins away, and I walked in and slapped them down, in
a very nice way, and took over and conducted the date,
produced the date, I think that was a –. She gained a margin
of respect on this date, and I gained respect for her."
The Show, which
had opened to the strains of "Sleep," the Waring theme song,
now closed with it. But the enthusiastic audience would not
permit the 30-member troupe to leave, before coming through
with a pair of encores. There were three curtain calls.
"Do you think –."
Mj was exhausted. He desperately had to give birth to his
mother-stealing theory somehow very soon or die. So, right on
the shores of Indian hell, in a faintly glowing Huron
longhouse, past the midnight of sacred council, and still lost
as hell, in the middle of hearing out big Chief Interminable’s
Deganawitha saga, he
gave birth. "Do you think," he breathed as it came
out, "that Fred sees it as your fault,
that she," he breathed again, "left him last year, after you
married her?"
"Yes, but she
finished the year."
"Does he blame you
and not her?!"
"Oh, of course. I
think Fred respects my intelligence, to put it nicely,
something like that. 'Cause, y'know, I've been –, I don't want
to put it in a crude way, I don't want to say, 'nose to nose’.
It wasn't nose to nose, but I stood there and matched words
with him. I think he respects that. And he thinks, well, I've
taken some of her respect away from him."
Mj’s Fred Waring in
the mirror thought it was time for a finale, a huge orchestral
wrap-up, BIG-movie style. It felt like a premature denouement,
oddly, but maybe that was what the arranger had intended,
since the subject was, after all: "I love you much too
much!!!"...
"Well, you probably
have taken
some of her respect away from him," mj said with assurance. He
relaxed for the first time in what seemed like hours and
hours, feeling he finally had the answer. Bill had stolen
Fred's mother from him. It made sense. Fred’s mother had been
‘his horse’, as Bill had said earlier in the evening, and then
Betty Ann had become Fred’s horse in a similar way; and Fred
had been ‘the apple of his mother’s eye’, as Bill had also
said, and then Fred had become the apple of Betty Ann’s eye.
She had demonstrated that fact all night by the way she would
get mushy over how she saw Fred in her mind’s eye,
every single time Bill portrayed him as a spunky, feisty,
teenage-y brilliant brat.
Bill was calm. "No.
She was going to leave Fred when I met her."
"Yes, but I
mean your talking with her," mj frowned. "You probably helped
her see Fred in a different light." Mj might have taken ten
peyote buttons, but he was more rational than Sigmund Freud.
He had his mother-stealing interpretation nailed down tightly
already and it was
right, as he would understand much better, and
much later. In Fred’s deepest emotions, Bill had stolen the
wine god’s mother-substitute, Betty Ann, everybody’s mother,
Earth Mother herself: Demeter; Cybele; Mary; whatever you
called the earth mother. Bill had stolen from Fred his
goddess-mother. But it would take mj lorenzo years to pinpoint
exactly what this must have felt like for Fred. It was an
ancient theme in religions the world over. Almost every tribe or people
had used a different name for the earth-mother goddess, going
practically all the way back to her biggest heyday during the
Stone Age, and a different name for her son, the wine God, but
almost every civilization or culture had worshiped both
deities, and they were almost always linked, an earth mother,
and her wine-god son who had been and/or would be cut up in
pieces and/or sacrificed in some form.
And Fred Waring
and the Pennsylvanians for some apparently deep and
unconscious human psychological reason had just spent the
last 56 years playing the whole thing out.
Right down to the
gruesome sacrifice of the wine God.
AS IF: Fred really HAD been
as worthy of deification as his devotees had acted, and
really HAD been the Wine-God son of the Earth-Mother
goddess, Everybody’s-Mother, Betty Ann.
HOW WAS IT
POSSIBLE?![7]
Dr. Lorenzo’s
Jungian pundit followers claimed their hero mj, ‘without even
trying’, had ‘proven’ Jung’s theory of the archetypes of the
collective unconscious, the universal symbolic structure of
human psychology, and that was a very big claim to make,
everyone said, because Jung’s theory was a huge and difficult
thing to prove. Jung himself had practically gone psychotic
trying to demonstrate and prove it!
Fred Waring and Betty Ann McCall
Blackburn
the mythical archetypal relationship
which was the true source of the huge fuss
that led to mj lorenzo’s
second book
Tales of Waring
More shocking yet,
therefore, as mj would also realize years later, Bill
Blackburn had done something even more unspeakable in Fred’s
eyes than just to ‘steal Betty Ann’ from the Pennsylvanians.
He had broken a taboo of almost every ancient religion. He had
not merely stolen the Earth Mother from all of her worshipers,
including the Pennsylvanians and the audiences. He had robbed
the sacred, divine, widely worshiped goddess of the earth from her wine-god son,
the one god who was always more human than all the other gods,
the one god that always came to live on earth in human form,
and the one always designated for sacrifice so that all humans
could be reborn and experience a new life, a life after death
even, maybe. Bill had intruded into the sacred circle and
robbed divinity of divinity. It was like robbing Jesus and his
Christian religion of Mary, and 'Jesus' was pissed. ‘Jealousy’
didn’t cover it. Fred was ‘righteously pissed to
high heaven and knew he had every right to be’. That
was how the ‘Hoha pundits’ put it eventually, only for
purposes of emphasizing, as usual, just how arrogant Fred
Waring and people like him could get.
"I don't think I
talked her into anything. I think she saw him for what he was
before I came along," Bill said in all seriousness, of course;
it felt like eons since he had last cracked a joke.
And this answer
bode poorly for Fred’s verdict because it left Fred with no
excuse for his mean behavior toward Bill, if it was true. And
Bill was known for speaking the truth. If Betty Ann made her
own choices, then Fred could not blame Bill for Betty Ann’s
quitting the Pennsylvanians and had no right to treat Bill
badly over it, even if
Fred and Betty Ann were both divine, as egomaniac Fred
seemed to have felt. In fact, he would have had no right
treating Bill like dirt even if Bill had
encouraged Betty Ann to leave Fred, yet he had treated Bill
like dirt for some reason and Bill had felt devalued,
dehumanized, and emasculated. It was obvious. Otherwise, Bill
would not have been so mad. And Bill’s answer did not help
psychoanalysis either; or mj and his fairy tale. It helped
Bill Blackburn more than anyone, at this point; and so mj
sounded rather disappointed when he finally said, "Really?"
Bill nodded like a
tribal statesman. He sat like the Five-Nation Tree of Peace,
rooted, penetrating the ground beneath the house, grasping a
turtle-shell earth. He was the storyteller Deganawitha,
Iroquois Peacemaker, born of a Huron virgin, reforming and
uniting the Iroquois nations. In six hours this man had
endured a soul-combing of mythic proportion. What more could
anyone expect from him in one night?
It was time to put
an end to it, this tedious, morbid, pointless longhouse
ceremony sacrificing the man the Pennsylvanians treated like a
god.
"Mj, my honest
opinion is, Betty Ann is a lot sharper than she's given credit
for, in that respect. I know she doesn't think that, but I
think that, and I don't know what to do about it. That's the
light she saw Fred in!"
On each of his
visits to the
The scalps were tanned
and, in time of war, were fastened onto poles and set upon the
walls of villages to frighten attackers.[9]
With a heave of gut
and a loud sigh, mj got in a kind of last word on this subject
for the moment; and
it was his brand new baby of a theory, still coming out into
the world, looking for daylight. He sighed: "But anyway, even
if it was not your fault, the point is, Fred blames you that
she is gone. That’s the point. It’s how he sees her
leaving him that matters, not how it is; because how he sees it is the
thing that determines how he treats you. And he sees you,
right or wrong, as having taken from him someone who had been
a kind of mother to
him, and a mother to everyone else in the Pennsylvanians too."
It was obvious.
Vuh vah-vah-vah-vuh-voooommmm!!!! There was a
nineteen-thirties cinematic orchestral racket, the kind played
before the movie intermission, when everything is still up in
the air.
Bill looked at his
friend without reaction. He had NO interest whatever
in understanding Fred Waring or making peace with him after
what Fred had put him through. That was why he had focused his
night’s activity on revenge in the excruciatingly protracted
form of a book that would torture Fred mentally like a
sub-lethal flesh wound over the next ten millennia. It was
becoming more obvious with every passing minute. He was meting
out revenge right now and had been doing it for hours already,
even though he continued
to hide overt
expressions of anger, as tribal custom required. And who
knew how much longer he would draw out the torture? Mj was the
only one looking for ‘understanding’ and ‘peace’. Bill
certainly was not. He was talking and talking, true, but
merely to try and help out his poor, mixed up friend, mj, see
what had really happened, not to find a way of making peace.
But it was all happening too fast for poor mj to sort out, so
he kept fumbling and stumbling like a nervous freshman
tenderfoot brave, right through the whole dark and protracted,
gruesome longhouse ordeal.
the Deer Head
attracted Fred’s Pennsylvanians after their rehearsals at the
old Castle Inn
because it was
just across the street
the Deer
Head’s jazz schedule as photographed on November 8, 2018
[1] Trigger, op cit, 74.
[2] Op cit, 73f.
[3] See list of
concerts for 73-74 season in Tale 42, “Those Audiences Are
My People,” which shows that the final
concert of the year, Saturday, April 6, 1974, was at the
University Field House in E. Stroudsburg,
[4] Trigger, 74.
[5] Ibid.
[6] Trigger, 74f.
[7]
This was the question Dr. Lorenzo asked Sammy
Martinez when they were discussing Tales of Waring
once, according to a story Sammy told the C. G. Jung
Society of Colorado during their 2018 summer lecture
series. “Why????!!!” the Dr. wanted to know, and Sammy
said, “Doesn’t it have something to do with replacing an
old religion with a new one, or an old worldview or
ideology with a new one, a former character structure with
a new one? The old one is cut up in pieces and buried,
dead, in some manner, only to resuscitate in a new form,
with a new life, a life less rigid and more alive in its
essential and fundamental spirit.”
“Okay, said the
Dr., if you say so. Will it get me into heaven if I
explain exactly that to St. Peter at the pearly gate?”
“Don’t count on
it,” Sammy answered. “Don’t ask me! Ask yourself! You’re
the culture hero, not me!”
“Yes, Dude, but
the ‘culture hero pundits’ have recently changed their
stance on that, and are now claiming that, in the adjusted
wisdom of their adjusted wisdom, you and I are TOGETHER a
pair of twin brothers, so to speak, who TOGETHER
constitute a single culture hero phenomenon, or some such
garbanzo, like two stars circling each other in the
heavens, in other words. We are a ‘binary star’, and my
own opinion is, YOU are the ‘brighter’ of the two, the
‘primary’ star, Dood,” said the Dr.
– And, as of
publication time, Sammy Martinez is still claiming he left
it at that. But students at Española High in New
Mexico are claiming otherwise, saying they saw him deposit
into a U.S. mailbox, addressed to his friend, mj, a
postcard of the Taos Pueblo with sun and moon in the sky
above it, both at once, and he had written ‘mj’ on the
sun, and ‘SM’ on the moon.
Sammy later told a few of the after-school reading club at Española (who also went to his church) that Jesus Christ was as good an example as you could find, of a divine or godlike man who revived an old religion by partially replacing it while at the same time giving it new life. In the belief system of Jesus’ followers, the old Jewish-Judaic obsession with the Law died with Jesus, while a new appreciation of Love came into the world when Jesus was resurrected. Even though Jesus did not ‘come to alter the Law one jot or tittle’, as he told his disciples before the crucifixion, after the resurrection God’s Law was nevertheless left in a shadow by God’s Love and Forgiveness – according to Christian belief.
[8] From a
We report such sundry details to emphasize how difficult it is to keep track of everything needed for publishing a complicated oeuvre of books which ‘study’ a given author, especially when that author lives in two countries and routinely drives back and forth between them; and most especially when one of those two countries is Mexico, a poor but developing one, riddled like so many Latin American cartel-driven countries with human-rights-abusing strongmen and mafia and drugs and addicts and addict thieves and associated bullying and crime up the wazoo (like killing your family members if you don’t pay protection money to the cartel), just because Americans demand to have the illegal drugs, and refuse to legalize and produce them themselves and monitor their usage carefully, as with alcohol, no matter what grave and disastrous damage their continued illegal status in the USA does to at least 9 out of 13 neighbor countries in the Western hemisphere between Mexico and Bolivia. (What a ‘neighbor’!)
[9] Trigger, 70.